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Desting x Zee fan fiction let's goooooooo

Rusty ↩️

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I read that really wrong and thought that Destin showed up in your dream and cuddled you

@Rusty - jump Desting x Zee fan fiction let's goooooooo

WHAT IS HAPPENING HERE? I DONT WANT TO BE INVOLVED IN ANY OF THIS!

too fucking bad bitch now go cuddle Zee

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you do too :3

12:09 AM

i think discord's CDN is exploding

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too fucking bad bitch now go cuddle Zee

I dont want to...

I don't have an avatar error :P

1:05 AM

No wait, yes I do :(

We have been noticing some changes when we have been switching lately. Posture changes dramatically when Destiny or Amanda switches posture changes dramatically. Natalie is the most hyper and stims alot. I have developed a ~minor~ shitty accent. Zee has told that switching/possession feels more alien as time goes on.

3:06 PM

I had a stroke while typing this btw

yes, i was watching your conversation and i believe im just as confused as everyone else, what exactly are you asking about with that last message?

okay this is like really not an appropriate channel, maybe like #lounge or #tech or smth (edited)

What is the question? What is the purpose of the programme? I have so many questions.

Like....your physical posture?

11:58 PM

Keeping your back and shoulder straight, that kind of stuff?

But what would a tulpa...do??

12:35 AM

I don't see how these two things are related, at all.

12:35 AM

You're going to have to elaborate

this conversation is so hard to read

12:35 AM

good luck atlas

It's easier than whatever’s going on in general. I think I'll stay here.

12:37 AM

I actually want to hear about the tulpa posture thing.

i think he was referring to Zee's(or someone else's) system members starting to develop different postures when switching

I mean, if that is what is being asked, then yes, different headmates may have different mannerisms, including their posture.

I don’t really understand anything this guy says

I don't know, either. The only other question I can think of is "Can I make a tulpa to make my posture better?"

That would be a very dumb and ineffective reason to make a tulpa. Different headmates can end up with different voices and way they move and such while fronting though which is a fairly interesting thing. Error does speak a little differently from me but I don’t think it’s enough for other people to pick up on. He does speak louder than me and I always end up with a slight sore throat every time he decides to be in a vc for a long time. Error tends to be a lot more… emotive I suppose. More energetic than I am for sure. Ink is much quieter and softer, which i think is a very noticeable difference. He’s much calmer and has a habit of just looking down to the side like he’s shy or nervous for some reason even though he’s not.

Atlas ˗ˏˋM&M´ˎ˗

It's easier than whatever’s going on in general. I think I'll stay here.

What Zane meant is that individual mannerisms became more obvious for us the more we switched and possessed. Zane however had an aneurysm because he was enraged at battlefield 1. (edited)

No, I meant what MississsippiMudPie was talking about. The messages were deleted, I think.

@Deleted User re #general-chat I wouldn't consider myself fully a tulpa system, but i did discover eishi via tulpamancy Momo "wanted to exist" and started interacting with me once i let them (though they had been there before they formally appeared) And james appeared randomly without my consent (though he also existed before he started interacting with me.) I consider us like a partial tulpa system If you have any questions feel free to ask I learned a lot about tulpamancy and about other forms of plurality within the past several months

Well firstly I whould ask about how it actually to have more than one tulpa at time and didnt it became a mess of emotions and throughs?

It can be somewhat annoying to tell who is saying what, but generally you can just pause and be like 'who tf said that' and someone will step forward

‍♂️ Its not actually as confusing as it seems. Also each person has their own 'presence' or 'vibe'. You can feel who is who. (edited)

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Well firstly I whould ask about how it actually to have more than one tulpa at time and didnt it became a mess of emotions and throughs?

It's not that bad Thoughts from each headmate are pretty separate, and i can tell who's speaking Sometimes it get tiring or i get headaches but it's not bad

So as I see you have a few tulpas or its a rare stuff? Im just interested because well its inspires me now to write some kind of story

My spit-in-the-wind guess is you have systems of 2-7 and then you jump to like 15-20. After that, you jump to 30 something, and then by 50+ it's either a gateway system or a polyfrag system

Isn't polyfrag a medical term

I thought it was a Tumblr term

No i'm fairly certain that polyfragmented is a medical term

if you have a tulpa system that has 50+ members you probably have something medically wrong with you anyway

Yeah that

Polyfragmented is a medical term, yeah

but Kei is right i beleive, it is a medicial term

Is it bad for me to use polyfrag?

But I suppose anyone can be polyfragmented if they're just a huge system in general

idk enough about the term to really know tbh

A long kiss goodnight

Is it bad for me to use polyfrag?

I mean It's probably fine? But i don't think it's a good idea to mix up medical terms with non-medical cases

Rusty

if you have a tulpa system that has 50+ members you probably have something medically wrong with you anyway

Well more than 50 sounds cursed and crazy but im sure something like that is exist

we steal so many terms and make a new definition for it anyway. but generally yeah, we should try to avoid mixing them

Deleted User

Well more than 50 sounds cursed and crazy but im sure something like that is exist

More than 50 def does exist in DID My cousin with DID is polyfragmented

8:11 PM

She has more than 100

Deleted User

Well more than 50 sounds cursed and crazy but im sure something like that is exist

I don't beleive thats a true tulpa system at that point, its probably attached to some other mental condition. Thats not a normal thing to happen

We know a few bigger systems who are disordered, yeah

Well then another little question, how like first tulpa react on creation of second and how the forcing of second is actually going then.

We're on the bigger end and consider ourselves traumagenic. The level of how disordered we are is a little hazy

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Well then another little question, how like first tulpa react on creation of second and how the forcing of second is actually going then.

that is highly dependent on the person. Typically a tulpa isnt going to immedately react to anything you are doing on the first day.

50+ I should start saying disordered, yeah, that works

I think this depends in the tulpa and their personality.

capori ↩️

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Deleted User

Well then another little question, how like first tulpa react on creation of second and how the forcing of second is actually going then.

I think the way the first tulpa would react would depend on how willing they are to have another tulpa in the mix Personally i never had any problems with jealousy or annoyance that more headmates were popping up but i'm sure some systems do

Kei Wendt

She has more than 100

well yeah i know a lot actually about DID because of my friends sister but it could go really that far? anyway its not really question im just well exited in some way

A few of us do dislike system growth, so we've taken measures to prevent it from happening, to fairly good success.

Gateway systems can also be disordered, but if they only think about 3-6 headmates at once and don't find it stressful, I can't really call them disordered

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well yeah i know a lot actually about DID because of my friends sister but it could go really that far? anyway its not really question im just well exited in some way

Yeah it does happen There's some research that suggests that polyfragmentation happens when there is more severe trauma but there's also evidence that DID can happen with little to no trauma so.

Well i have some other maybe a bit private question you can not answer it if you dont want to, im just curious, like everyone had reason for creating tulpa what was yours then? Like my right now actually kinda silly but well i just want to share some good moments of life with someone etc, im not having much friends so yeah thats it

Deleted User

Well then another little question, how like first tulpa react on creation of second and how the forcing of second is actually going then.

Usually once you no longer have trouble telling yourself and your tulpa apart, tulpa creation can be very easy

Deleted User

Well i have some other maybe a bit private question you can not answer it if you dont want to, im just curious, like everyone had reason for creating tulpa what was yours then? Like my right now actually kinda silly but well i just want to share some good moments of life with someone etc, im not having much friends so yeah thats it

My reason for trying to create a tulpa was that i was incredibly lonely.

I didn't have a reason I did this shit on accident

8:19 PM

Guilt? I guess

8:19 PM

I made the choice to keep going.

8:19 PM

I fucked up, a lot, and wanted to unfuck it

Well i have some other maybe a bit private question you can not answer it if you dont want to, im just curious, like everyone had reason for creating tulpa what was yours then? Like my right now actually kinda silly but well i just want to share some good moments of life with someone etc, im not having much friends so yeah thats it

@deleted_user_f34824ea78e9 - jump I created everyone thinking they were me and felt obligated to keep them out of guilt. It wasn't necessary but I don't want to lose my headmates now

I didnt feel guilt on an obligation to keep them around. I felt guilt because I fucked them over and wanted closure, I didn't mind if they made the choice to leave. Although im thankful they didnt

Well thanks for telling such details heh

8:22 PM

Actualy newer seen people telling much of that to some random guy like me

Well, if someone asks a question, i try my best to answer it

this stuff is our favorite topic, a lot of us are going to jump on the chance to talk about it again because we are crazy people /j

~~we need to get more people in the cult~~

exactly

~~we need to get more people in the cult~~

@aapeli 🟣🥫🥔 ae - jump No

8:25 PM

Actualy newer seen people telling much of that to some random guy like me

@deleted_user_f34824ea78e9 - jump We're an open book, we tell everyone and their grandma what we're thinking

Well Im very thankful to you guys for answers

. Maybe last one i actually wanted to ask for now is well how much does tulpas changed in you life, i mean habbits etc

One habit that i've gained is thinking about them as often as i can And wearing our system bracelet

i try my best to do something together for an hour or two every evening, apart from that everything changes a bit if you take them with you to do daily stuff

8:31 PM

some days its almost exactly like before tulpa and more just me time

Life is definitely different as a system. This brain definitely doesn't function how it used to I think having tulpas has been a mixed experience given our mental health problems. Some things are easier while some things are harder. We're hopeful we'll have a more positive experience once we heal up enough As for habits- I talk to Ranger or she uses brain power every day. Given her development and age, Ranger now manifests on a deeper unconscious level, sometimes when I zone out I'll think her thoughts and go "huh? Wait that's not me". My headmates will sometimes wake up to things they associated themselves with. Some of our other habits have deteriorated as our mental health worsened

yeah for context we're 2 months in

I had Ranger officially for almost 5 and 1/2 years, but it's possible she's quite a bit older than that. I don't know exactly when I created her

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Well i have some other maybe a bit private question you can not answer it if you dont want to, im just curious, like everyone had reason for creating tulpa what was yours then? Like my right now actually kinda silly but well i just want to share some good moments of life with someone etc, im not having much friends so yeah thats it

accidental. quite honestly I had a rough childhood and having no one to go to about it, I thought I would explore religion, the paranormal, and find someone to talk to all at the same time. I just tried mentally reaching out to everything I could think of until I felt a presence and scared the hell out of myself. we talked for awhile and they eventually hugged me while figuring out how to talk

CoppermineKittygirl

accidental. quite honestly I had a rough childhood and having no one to go to about it, I thought I would explore religion, the paranormal, and find someone to talk to all at the same time. I just tried mentally reaching out to everything I could think of until I felt a presence and scared the hell out of myself. we talked for awhile and they eventually hugged me while figuring out how to talk

quite interesting thanks for sharing

One of my parts was confused for the Christian God, that's how Gray created part of me

8:48 PM

I'm an integration of 3 tulpas, talking about my origins can be strange

Well Im very thankful to you guys for answers

. Maybe last one i actually wanted to ask for now is well how much does tulpas changed in you life, i mean habbits etc

@Deleted User - jump a whole lot, I have motivation to do things she needs to do but doesn't feel like doing, and vice versa. we've also figured out something that probably has a term but we don't know it yet, where we can both control parts of the body to get a task we would normally struggle with individually done. best example is that some stuff got stuck under our mattress. trying to clear it out I struggled to focus on both keeping the mattress up as I moved around to grab things under it. Taylor was able to take one arm and as long as I kept it in sight, we could finish up moving everything

Adriel | Shadow System

I'm an integration of 3 tulpas, talking about my origins can be strange

Intresting and thanks

Taygete

Well Im very thankful to you guys for answers

. Maybe last one i actually wanted to ask for now is well how much does tulpas changed in you life, i mean habbits etc

@Deleted User - jump a whole lot, I have motivation to do things she needs to do but doesn't feel like doing, and vice versa. we've also figured out something that probably has a term but we don't know it yet, where we can both control parts of the body to get a task we would normally struggle with individually done. best example is that some stuff got stuck under our mattress. trying to clear it out I struggled to focus on both keeping the mattress up as I moved around to grab things under it. Taylor was able to take one arm and as long as I kept it in sight, we could finish up moving everything

Maybe co-fronting is the term you're looking for?

I mean yeah, I felt like there's a very specific term for splitting up control across the body though?

possession?

Splitting up control? Like aappeli said, possession can be used for that

probably a closer term, thanks